Five Minute Friday – “Ready”

Friday. Another Friday and I’ve missed the deadline again.  It’s Saturday and I’m going to write anyway and post it, just to keep the promise to myself that I will write regularly.

Yes, I do write regularly on my other blog (alzheimerswife) but it’s always on the same topic. I’ve created two additional blogs (this one and food dancer) so I can post other things like recipes, stories, everyday life, pets, whatever comes to mind.

Writing is my outlet, especially since I’ve retired and been home with my husband Bo. I’ve always loved to write so it’s a natural for me to do this, no matter whether anyone reads what I write or not.

Ready. Was I ready to retire? to have this quiet life? to stay home, not travel, not dance, not shop? Absolutely not. I have worked since I was 12 years old – babysitting, newspaper reporting, teaching, working for a stationery store where I had a major allergic reaction to the dust when we took inventory and I loved everything I did, no mater how good or bad.  I even picked raspberries one summer.  I’m just one of those people who needs a purpose,  needs to be busy.

But I really wasn’t ready for my husband to have alzheimers.   I had to take over the family finances,  house maintenance,  bills,  medical decisions, legal decisions,  pet care taking, car maintenance.  I wasn’t ready for any of it.  And I certainly wasn’t ready to face the future without my beloved Boris.  I’m still not.  I’ll never be ready.

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3 Responses to Five Minute Friday – “Ready”

  1. revskid says:

    Wow! You’ve got a lot to deal with. Life is like that though, giving us the unimaginable and somehow we find our way through the maze. I read your latest post on your alzheimer’s blog and am glad you feel like you have a connection with someone who understands what’s going on. That doctor sounds wonderful. Hospice is such a comfort—they were there for both my parents and me.(mom had leukemia and dad had congested heart failure and the shut down of his kidneys.) We are never ready to say good-bye to a loved one and yet somehow we find the strength to do so when they need us to. I believe in prayer and will lift you and your situation up.
    I preceded you on the five-minute-friday line- up. I too didn’t get it written until today.

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  2. Susan says:

    Love this! We are never really ready for all life throws at us. That’s all the more reason we need the Lord. We simply cannot do it alone–I know I can’t. I’ll be lifting you and your husband up in prayer that you will be ‘ready’ for each and every day you have together. Hugs! Now, suppose I should write my post–two days late! I simply wasn’t READY on Friday! 😉

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  3. jodaley says:

    Visiting from FMF today. My post went up on Monday so you’re ahead of me : ) You’ve got a heavy burden. I pray you have some support in the form of friends, family, church family. That is a tough road to travel on your own. Take care.

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